2008 - THE YEAR THAT WAS - A NEW BEGINNING - 2009

This morning I was browsing on the net, when I came across an article on "Making space in your heart - by removing the clutter" at www.ivillage.com. And I realised that it was such an apt article for me, and I read it through.In the year that was a lot of people have hurt me, some out of malice, others out of selfishness and still others have been insensitive to my feelings. And I have still kept clinging on to them, causing pain for none other than myself. I hurt and I hurt - and I wondered and pondered all the time that something must be wrong with me...I saw myself with disrespect and loathing. Till this moment I believed that something was wrong with me. There have been many whose lives I have turned around 360 degrees, and yet when I look back, I wonder why I am still hanging on to them when they dont want me anymore.So when I read this article this morning, I told myself that from today - I will think in my best interest, I will treat myself with confidence, love and respect. That I will make friends with people who reflect the best about me.From today I let go of Jesus- for whom I was a surragate soulmate for 5 years. I want to let go of all those other people who have hurt me. I want to let go of Alex - whom I had made the center of my life - and did everything that only pleased him - but all that he has given me is pain, pain and more pain. It hurt me when he did not even call me to wish me for Christmas...refused to take my calls..and never answered to the upteem emails I have sent him. I clung to him as though my life depended on him...as though he was the last person on this earth, as though without him my heart would stop beating, as though he was the beginning and the end of my world. Today I set him free....ofcourse I wont forget some beautiful moments I have shared with him.Today I am setting free all those things I clung to - always believing that that is what my life is all about. I am letting go of all my old believes, my thinking, my pains and making space for better opportunities, positive friends, may be a new love, new life style, new goals, dreams, purpose.I already feel better now that I have done this - I am breathing freely, I can feel the cool breeze of new spring in my life. To all those friends who have come into my life through my blogs...I thank you..you have been such greath strength - you are people who have reflected the best in me.I also thank my fitness students - you have been my motivating factor - you have given me the high of life...I want to continue giving you the best of my fitness regime.I want to thank the new friends I have made in Houston USA - some very wonderful people...I want to continue being your friends...and keep in touch with you.My dreams for the new year - I will write my book - learn a new skill for the change in career - working towards getting an ACE certificate in fitness from USA, and most of all travel the world..To everyone who is reading this blog I WISH ALL OF YOU A NEW YEAR 2009 FILLED WITH LOVE, JOY,PEACE AND GREAT HEALTH.